im sad. really llc now. what's the point of me rushing so much when i didnt even go for the review . what's wrong with me doing so much and not being able to wake up on time. seriously , i hate this. it's not that i wanted to sleep more than usual but it's just that these few days of working overnite have really make my body so weak that i just cant seem to be able to respond to early morning alarm calls.


im sick. im sad.



i just sent a email to my teacher and hope she knows the situation im in now. hope i get another chance as if i miss this chance , it will be over. everything i done for the past few days will be over. really over now i guess. repeating over and over again for the same kind of mistake. have i really grown ? i doubt so.

struggling to go to meetings . struggle to go and finish up my portfolio. struggle to even think of how do i get my portfolio work done . although some i admit when im doing im kinda half - hearted . but i guess if teacher only accept 100% submission , im kinda repeating for another sem . just for this.


no mood. cant even think properly now. abit of mix emotion now. im tired . really tired. shouldnt i be happy that i can struggle that much in just a few days ? shouldnt i be happy doing all gakkai activities? i guess that when one pushes oneself too hard , things will get nasty .

i hope can think of nothing right now and try to get some sleep i should deserve for doing portfolio over the past few days.

sori for taking your time to read. im long winded yeh . just wanna let out my frustration inside me.