> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Saturday, July 26, 2008~~

2:40 AM

Trying to put beautiful songs here. Inspires anyone to go on even if the road ahead is tough.

Will you ever notice me...

1:15 AM

this guy's song i came to know about only recently . his music is simply .... nice .

check out the songs he have but im gonna share with you guys just one of it.

不知道为了什么　忧愁它围绕著我
我每天都在祈祷　快赶走爱的寂寞

你要我听这一首歌　用这首歌离开我
她唱得太美了　歌词却很伤人
你为什么不直接提分手

爱人的话不需要重　轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了　表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口　对抗心痛　一个人

你的黑发　现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇　现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我　最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈　你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我　恨深深包围我
你要我为你好　快赶走爱的寂寞

Will you ever notice me...

1:02 AM

There's alot of things happening in nyp recently. It dawn on me that healthy people tends to take good health for granted. of course to say that it's only when you suffer in old age that you will realised the importance of good health.

NO INTERNET IS DRIVING ME NUTS !

argh. this loss of network thingy is driving me crazy. hence it gives me more reason to do kofu . guess no internet also quite good anyway. but you are wondering how on earth i am able to type this now. have to thank the person who let me leech i mean tap his wireless. if not , i cant even surf a web. have to search what materials i need fast so that i can do my stuffs.

anyways , today was fun . after our usual daimouku at ervin house , we went to have our dinner. lots of funny stuffs at daimouku. the chatting session after that was so inspiring. guess storytelling is yijie's talent. i doubt i can do story telling like that.

after which we went abit of shopping here and there. quite fun . unwinding i would say. to relieve stress sometimes is a form of enjoyment also.

not to be emo or whatsoever . just wanted to share a pretty old favourite of mine. by richard marx. meaningful songs.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, July 23, 2008~~

2:43 AM

Today was super funny nia . the presentation we have to do end up into something humourous all thanks to my team mate i have to crack abit of a joke at the presentation also . Well, it's entertaining but it lacks the content. But it was a relieve that we pull through it. My portfolio was a mess. yes , i know portfolio i cannot afford to repeat but sad to say i might need to come back second semester to complete it. But i can assure you that my spirit to go even further have not been dampen.

there's a small hiccup in my life. it would have turn out to be a good opportunity to get closer to her but i blew the chance. mabbe i wasn't thinking straight when i'm asking her out despite having no sleep the previous day. what am i thinking . haiz . Hope can make it up to her sometime soon .

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, July 17, 2008~~

1:14 AM

this video describe what i really have done XD

anyway , thanks everyone in nypsd . you guys are a gem .

Will you ever notice me...

12:58 AM

im sad. really llc now. what's the point of me rushing so much when i didnt even go for the review . what's wrong with me doing so much and not being able to wake up on time. seriously , i hate this. it's not that i wanted to sleep more than usual but it's just that these few days of working overnite have really make my body so weak that i just cant seem to be able to respond to early morning alarm calls.

im sick. im sad.

i just sent a email to my teacher and hope she knows the situation im in now. hope i get another chance as if i miss this chance , it will be over. everything i done for the past few days will be over. really over now i guess. repeating over and over again for the same kind of mistake. have i really grown ? i doubt so.

struggling to go to meetings . struggle to go and finish up my portfolio. struggle to even think of how do i get my portfolio work done . although some i admit when im doing im kinda half - hearted . but i guess if teacher only accept 100% submission , im kinda repeating for another sem . just for this.

no mood. cant even think properly now. abit of mix emotion now. im tired . really tired. shouldnt i be happy that i can struggle that much in just a few days ? shouldnt i be happy doing all gakkai activities? i guess that when one pushes oneself too hard , things will get nasty .

i hope can think of nothing right now and try to get some sleep i should deserve for doing portfolio over the past few days.

sori for taking your time to read. im long winded yeh . just wanna let out my frustration inside me.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, July 14, 2008~~

1:41 AM

Happen to chance by lester email a few days back . it's regarding the china 5.12 stories . i've read through everyone of it. Everything was put clearly to me and instantly i began to weep like no other people business. Hoping to share the pictures here . hope the author of those pictures wouldnt sue me for it >.< it's for a good cause .

there are many but i would want to point out just a few cases

firstly is

hope you guys can see . Anyway just something about that picture. It just happen that when the rescuer find someone in the rubble , they found the mum trying to protect her child from all possible dangers. she sacrifice her own body in order to protect the life of her child . how great parents are !

in the handphone just inside of the baby's blanket it writes , " my dear and sweet child , if you can survive , always remember that .. i love you ... "

Here's another one

this is a story about the teacher who protected four of his students from dangers while he sacrifice himself. How can you ever find such a teacher . How wonderful all these people are .

With that in mind , i created a poem for all teachers whom care and love students just like their own .

"Their heart is as broad as the ocean ,
with a passion to teach ,
to share their knowledge ,
to people around them .
Giving selflessly to the students ,
Sacrificing oneself ,
Teacher ,
I salute you !"

Tragedy are happening . but nonetheless because of those selflessness of the people , than only can there be more hope for the future.

Will you ever notice me...

1:16 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F4DJHOzIxvs

Seems like video not working nvm here's the song

Lyrics

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Fantastic song . Memories flow through me when i hear this song . Full of emotions.

Wonder what im up to recently ?

Well , bits and pieces everywhere.

Yes , i can finally say that i'm going towards my goal. Didnt realise that i done so much in just two days. yah , you heard it two days .

Saturday was institution meeting for nyp . Was fun nonetheless. Got a little bit of happy cause of someone's praise. XD

yeah and my portfolio review is coming wednesday . Past two days working on it day and night without stopping. Okay i lied , i did stop for awhile at least. The way i work is quite different from others . i tend to take things slow . when im stuck i will not sit there for hours thinking what to do. instead i will take the time off , an excuse for me to walk around catching inspirations as they fall upon me .

i also owe my inspirations from my parents and siblings. they simply rocks ! i wish i could say in their face they are really the wonderful parents i could ever have . but being typical asian , i dun dare to say things like that in front of them . i think they might run ROFL !

Few more inspiration to go and im set to start putting in colors into my artwork . Didn't know i can get so much moving once i set my mind on it. i thought im a goner since wednesday is the due date . But i make it thus far i shall not give up

there's one thing i always kept in my mind when i work with my artworks , that is don't complain. i felt that at times like this it is absolutely the best thing i could hold on to . Something that pushes me on even when my inspirations went dry .

i hope i do have photos . more photos to share in my blog. getting dry with my talk eh?

Bored with everyday songs ? here's something i just recently like . catchy music

time for a little S.H.E ? me too . lovely girls singing makes you wanna fall in love too.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, July 06, 2008~~

11:08 PM

recently yet strangely .. been forcing myself to do alot of things i dun really like to do . yet somehow , something is keep pushing me to do it no matter what has happened . Not to worry though , this are just part and pieces of my memories i would still like to pen it down . Cause knowing i'll be safe from criticism and such , im always happy to blog . but yes , i think no one knows what's going on with my life now as it's kinda a mess now . Even i dunno where to start from but all i can say is that im struggling to prove . Maybe to prove someone wrong , maybe to prove to myself , maybe it's just my ego . I just dun want to admit defeat .

there's no such word in my dictionary as defeat . there's always a way out of this if i can put my words into action.

but simply said than done . Often i ask myself , isn't that the best solution of all ? no doubt it hurts but it's still the best solution after all . to strive on is truly what i needed most now . to fight through this uncertainty . to win not only for myself as a person but also to prove to others i can do it .

lately been running away from problems. guess people only see the always motivated side of me . the side of me that keep telling others to strive on , yet struggling admist the problems .

the helpful side of me , the always responding side of me isn't as easy as it seems to be. even the closest frenz , doesn't even know that much of me . they only know me as a boy that's always there for them .

to make a change so drastic in myself , is something that sometimes i cant even take it . even to say it for a normal being , i feel that i'm kinda weak in that sense. silently taking the pressure , making myself work harder .

at times i wish i could take a long long break from all this . no doubt there's no running for reality . but often i wish i just could escape from this for just a tiny bit of minute will do nicely too .

if i cease to be me , what am i ?

Even for studies , it's not going that smoothly as i predicted for the lazy side of me . Though i thought this was easy to overcome but yes the history is soon gonna take over again.

probably the lack of consistant chanting i guess ?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, July 03, 2008~~

11:02 PM

humans . . . are they a cause of destruction ?

if they are what is the possible effects . . .

maybe true . maybe not

whenever there's a cause there's a effect . . . humans implanted the seed long ago. . .
the greed .. the thirst for power . . . the hunger nvr stops . . .

just like how the nature works .. nothing will stop at all .. the path that people took is simply. ..

why create bullet proof vest when there's no such needs for weapons ...
why create antidote when there's no cause to produce virus ...
why create pollution when you are trying to save the world ..
why create unhappiness in you when happiness is just ahead ..

indeed , humans are just creating problems for themselves. ..

people will greed , people with evil thoughts . .

here's a article that i come across that might help ...

humans are the only currently known species known to build fires, cook their food, clothe themselves, and manipulate and develop numerous other technologies.

yet .. not all of them uses them for good

yes we do use fire to cook food ..

but how many murders were arson cases ?

how many people are being set on fire?

not alot .. but there's still cases...

take another example ..

technologies ..

people created medicine because of the need to vaccine against the commutable diseases ..

but

isnt life and death part and parcel of life?

didnt people in the stone age live simply because of the fact they wanted to live?

isnt this a cause that humans created?

like for example , the creation of vehicle create pollution ..

why create this when there's a no need for vehicle in the past?

humans create things and overlook a part that they are also part of the nature , the universe..

why is things such as tsunami , flood , drought , typhoon , cyclone all that coming ?

isnt life in the past alot better ?

simple yet substainable..

we can never go back into the past rite now ..

there's no way we could and we can to visit the past once again ..

complains .. rantings ..

people keep scolding people every other day ..

don't they get tired of it ?

the best thing in human , is the word compassion.

and that's the best thing on earth..

caring for another stranger is nvr easy..

just like how animals behave..

you don't just go around abusing people with your language..

instead make best use of the power of speech to do good..

come out with a book
a novel
a short story
an article
a journal
something to record the good but erase the bad..

that's what's human is about ..

the world of humanitarianism .. building a world of peace..

P.E.A.C.E - jameskhoo , lover of the life of a human being.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, July 01, 2008~~

4:37 PM

~ Ni de xin qing zong zai fei
Shen me shi dou xiang qu zhui
Xiang zhua zhu yi dian an wei
Ni zong shi xi guan zai ren
Qun zhong pai huei
Ni zui hai pa gu dan de zhi wei
Ni de xin na me chui
Yi peng jiu hui shui
Jing bu qing yi dian feng chui
Ni de shen bian zong shi yao
Shu duo ren pei
Ni zui hai pa mei tian de tian hei

Dan shi tian zong hui bei
Ren zong yao li bie
Shui ye bu neng yong yuan pei shui
Er gu dan de zi wei
Shui dou yao mian dui
Bu zhi shi ni wo
Hui gan jue dao pi bei

chorus: * dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui
ni xiang bu xiang zhao ge ren lai pei
ni de kuai le shang bei
zhi yao wo neng ti hui
rang wo zai pei ni zhou yi hui

~ Ni de xin qing zong zai fei
Shen me shi dou xiang qu zhui
Xiang zhua zhu yi dian an wei
Ni zong shi xi guan zai ren
Qun zhong pai huei
Ni zui hai pa gu dan de zhi wei
Ni de xin na me chui
Yi peng jiu hui shui
Jing bu qing yi dian feng chui
Ni de shen bian zong shi yao
Shu duo ren pei
Ni zui hai pa mei tian de tian hei

Dan shi tian zong hui bei
Ren zong yao li bie
Shui ye bu neng yong yuan pei shui
Er gu dan de zi wei
Shui dou yao mian dui
Bu zhi shi ni wo
Hui gan jue dao pi bei

repeat chorus * 2x

ni de kuai le shang bei
zhi yao wo neng ti hui
rang wo zai pei ni zhou yi hui

Will you ever notice me...

3:08 PM

Will you ever notice me...