Sorry to all those people who have been visiting my blog regular or not so regularly . My apologies goes to all . Sorry for this short notice of the temporary closure of my blog but it's not due to my life in a haywire .. heck no . This is just a temporary measure as of today due to immerse pile of work waiting for me to clear . Yes , it will be a temporary thing . So if you see any post after this post that will mark the end of the closure . Probably i will bring something interesting into my blog . Sorry for the closure , but because im in my last semester , just become a cic , portfolio waiting for me , minor project thanks to my lecturer i get one last chance to prove her that i can finish the minor (it's due around 13 days ago) . True i will be missing lots of stuffs here , but im not cutting my means of communication just to lift off one load off my mind. as least i wouldnt think of blogging every now and than.
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, October 15, 2007
5:26 PM
School Term Starts !
Woohoo .. Guess what .. Something really hilarious happen today on my first visit back to school since after school holiday .. Everything seems well for my first class which is way too early at 8am .. oh i can tell you how much i miss my bed and stuffs ..
Well for a start it's not a bad idea just telling you stuffs that you might need for the class .. Btw , although sculpturing class seems cool like alot of you people think but it's aint for the faint of heart .. Just today , the materials we are suppose to get for the next week cost around 50 or probably more .. 25 bucks for the clay .. imagine that we have to get more if we ran out of it ..
and we nid plywood , wire and a machine to make clay softer to work on .. ideally i hope i can borrow some stuffs from the previous group if possible .. It will be very expensive to buy plywood and stuffs .. ah ! hope i have not miss out anything for next week .
Oh i forgot to talk about the point where im suppose to say the hilarious part of the whole thing ..
the whole process of talking took 15min .. after which we are free to go +.+ "'
i was like ~.~ when he say that .. cause my art and design history lesson is cancelled .. meaning i have to wait till 12 .. or probably just stoning till 12 ..
Anyway , the fun part was actually the avg (audio and visual effects for games )
We watch trailers and how those expert do their trailers behind the scenes .. pretty nice i would say .. for me to get into the industry at my standard now is a big nono .. Im not yet qualified but i will prove myself worthy of being a design student .. now im picking up the pace to do whatever there's need to be done ..
okay enough talk .. Back to work !
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, October 08, 2007
1:21 AM
Flames ignited ~ let there be a goal that guide me thru ..Number of hours wasted :playing games : infinite.. (lost count)Social life : null..My life acheivement : 0What have i done : ...I've killed myself ~It took me long enough to realise what was i missing throughout this entire two month of holiday..Bad enug , it took out my life.. my entire life..But im glad it did ,cause if it doesnt ,i'm gonna kill it myself ..as the poems goes :
| I stop breathing
And look at the knife in my hand
It looks as if I have no reason to live
But I keep thinking about you
You light up my life
You keep me alive
Without you life seems meaningless
The knife in my hand falls to the floor
I hear your voice say
'I love you'
And that's all I need to know |
there are many reason plp live for
for me
it's my dreams ,
my goals
my ambition
my desires
that keep me alive
without dreams ,
i wouldnt know what i am living for
without goals
i dun even know what's waking up for
without ambition
i wouldnt even think of tml
without dreams
i wouldnt be the guy i used to be..
Selfish aint it..
But to live
is to make sure every second counts
to live each day with a goal in mind
with a motive to drive you on
meaning having no regrets at the end of the day
and look forward to another day
but
can i really do it ?
im beginning to doubt myself
even at this instance of writing this
im starting to wander
if my mind is that weak
and my body wouldnt compromise
than i shall force my will out of me
Force it shall be
Be it cruel
Be it harsh
if there something i need to do
i have to do it
and act quick
..
.
| Sometimes I look at the watch
And wish I could stop time, but I can't
Cause time is Gods tool, to determine.
Every thing grows, and also dies
Can time suffer and also die?
Is time flat? Or is time round?
Where is time? Can time be found?
Is time there with each beat of my heart?
Was time there from the very start?
Is time bound? Or is time free?
Is time that, what is meant to be?
I can't say yes or no cause god
Is only the one who, know…
BY A.D & Some 1 from here. |
Yes.. time is precious.. you cant stop it.. but you could use it meaningful for someone.. for yourself..
Treasure your time..
STOP READING MY BLOG NOW AND GET BACK TO YOUR LIFE !
It's a lie..
I lied about having frogs fall from the sky
I lied to my mum that a dog ate up my books
I lied to get the girl to make her mine
I lied that I'm a good boy
I lied..
But what have i gain
Nothing..
I'm back ! With more energy , with more passion and with more love for the world and for myself .. Yes , I admit back than I've some really serious trouble at hand . .. But i realized one very important thing and that is friends and family . Though i didnt really bring this issue up with my parents but im sure they know and can feel the drastic change in me and my attitude all in a sudden .. There's someone i really like to thank . Although it's isnt really appropriate to thank someone here but i will like to thank weiyi and kaijing for thier encouragement . It's really ur effort that make me see that im really not fighting this alone .. for all the concern that all of u have given me , i shall make my life as a cic in nypsd a memorable one not just for me but for the members of nypsd . Let's advance forward together !
Will you ever notice me...
