~~Saturday, June 28, 2008~~

2:54 AM

Today seems to be a veri busy day for me . early morning i went to sleep . Yes . and i meant early morning than i got to sleep but not for long. after an hour or two im up and awake and ready to continue part two for my assignment in matte painting. argh! so hard to make it real . anyway the dateline is today at 3pm . I gotta rush down to causeway point to buy folder to contain my assignment , buy harder pieces of paper to print my artwork , 3rdly have to buy cd-r as i do not have in my house at all .

Rush here rush there somemore have to burn cd inside train . imagine how hectic my life is . nevertheless what's up and ahead for me is non other than to be the first to reach friday weekly daimouku. imagine me become doshi . i guess i got abit of nervous in me plus abit of super strained feet that i say good morning instead of good evening . how blur !

anyway i was sweating throughout the whole of the daimouku cause im pretty weak in it . Not because i never practise . but because i actually gave excuses last time round. Simply too lazy . last time when im younger (not saying im old liao) , i can remember the first part of the gongyo by heart. now i need to refer to it . pretty much need something or someone to teach me gongyo but i tend to chant alone when my parents not chanting already . so there's hardly chance for me to even ask them about it. so i listen more than i speak. i listen sometimes only catch some easier phrase . some harder parts i totally cant pronounce properly.

After the daimouku , we went for a friday's nite movie. how fun was it . it's been ages since i last laugh that much . for my life as least. thanks alot to all those who make it fun !

The show i watch was definitely something not to be missed . Hilarious show makes u sit on ur edge of ur seat. the show was called get smart. Saving the world in a hilarious way.

my life was indeed fufilling today. Simply awesome. Goodnitez ~ gonna dash to my bed rite now !

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, June 25, 2008~~

1:03 AM

Thinking hard . Wondering why do people think so hard ? Recently been writing. Feels that there's alot more i need to say. Who to say it to ?

Needless to say my life is in a mess . but what can be done now is none other than to find out the root of the cause of my problems and put an end to it. Nothing can be said for the things that i did. Indeed there's always a solution for things , maybe it isn't time for me yet. or maybe the time for me was long over .

If only human mind and heart can be reformatted . The world will be a much pleasant place to live in. It's time to reboot & reformat.

Many people doesn't like people speaking bad about them . To tell you the truth i also don't like people talking behind my back . Sometimes the only way to learn about yourself is non other than to ask people whom you hate talking to the most. They will give you a view free of obligation , free of biasness. Sometimes i wish i could get some people to shout at me . Telling me what is my fault . Telling me how should i improve on my character. Yes , it's not gonna work that way. Me , Myself and I is the only person that can help myself. Keep Fighting on .

“The depth of darkness to which you can descend and still live is an exact measure of the height to which you can aspire to reach.”

“Darkness is only driven out with light, not more darkness.” - Martin Luther King , Jr.

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.”

“The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision.”

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.”

“Keep your face to the sunshine and you will never see the shadow.”

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved.”

“What I am looking for is not "out there", it is in me”

Books and more books enriched my mind . ~

Will you ever notice me...

12:57 AM

Friends

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

- Jean Kyler McManus -

Are you the fren that im looking for ? Tag me if you are ~

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, June 23, 2008~~

2:25 AM

Just one last post =X

阿拉伯传说中有两个朋友在沙漠中旅行，
在旅途中的某点他们吵架了，
一个还给了另外一个一记耳光。
被打的觉得受辱，一言不语，在沙子上写下：
"今天我的好朋友打了我一巴掌。"
他们继续往前走。直到到了沃野，他们就决定停下。
被打巴掌的那位差点淹死，幸好被朋友救起来了。
被救起後，他拿了一把小剑在石头上刻了：
"今天我的好朋友救了我一命。"

一旁好奇的朋友问道：
为什麽我打了你以後，你要写在沙子上，
而现在要刻在石头上呢？

另个笑笑的回答说：
当被一个朋友伤害时，
要写在易忘的地方，
风会负责抹去它；
相反的如果被帮助，
我们要把它刻在心里的深处，那里任何风都不能抹灭它。

朋友的相处伤害往往是无心的，帮助却是真心的，
忘记那些无心的伤害；铭记那些对你真心帮助，
你会发现这世上你有很多真心的朋友...

俗语说:
你只需要花一分钟注意到一个人；
一小时内变成朋友：
一天让你爱上他；
一但真心爱上 . . .
你却需要花上一生的时间将他遗忘，
直至喝下那孟婆汤...

Copyright http://love.9ku.com/go/027/ .

Just think about this for a moment . If you dunno chinese tag me , i explain in further details.

Will you ever notice me...

1:40 AM

Quotes to motivate you ! ~

Youth should not seek an easy comfortable path. No one develops in a pampered environment . Youth should instead actively seek out challenges and hardships , transforming them all into valuable assets as they strive to become individual of outstanding character and ability. - Daisaku Ikeda

In case you are also wondering why are there so many disaster in this year alone , in my point of view it's because the earth is daamged . Something that oftens ring a bell in our ears , like my parent always say don't waste electricity , don't waste water. Something so near us , yet many of us do not even take it to heart.

I have been wondering , if all the campaigns to save electricity can really knock some sense into us humans that we are in fact in danger of existence if we do not take action about it.

In fact you can see from the saving electricity campaign in singapore that government is concerned about the overuse of electricity have the effect on global warming. Not only us. Many other countries foresee the need to take action. Like hongkong , being known as the light of the harbour have tried to lessen the burden on the earth by having a rule to turn off all the neon lights signs in the city for a period of time.

Oil is another issue now. oil demands are high but even if the countries producing oil meet up to this demand so ? There will be more and more demand for oils as more and more people drives. It's not a matter of whether they can meet the demand but rather is whether will people give up some comfort in exchange for a better world? I can foresee that in the near future , oil will dry up eventually . It's only a matter of time .

Right now , it's only right for us to protect the place we live in. By whatever means necessary , we must deal with this problem swift.

Will you ever notice me...

1:12 AM

After thinking through for quite sometime , I'm determined to change myself from inside. Just to share a article i read from one of my parent's gakkai book. I happen to chance upon it when i was idling and in fact been idling since just now till now. Well , the first article i see my glaze upon was indeed abit challenging for me to read through. All in Chinese and i have to guess what's the word is as some are really hard and i didn't even know how to pronounce it thus it makes it harder to search for the meaning.

I will not go into detail as direct translation will be abit weird for you guys to comprehend what is he going through at that point of time. This md lost her daughter to a fateful accident some years back. Allow me to quote something that inspire me alot and motivate me to carry on to push myself even further . " let us care for other people's child . " Buddhism teaches us to have compassion , wisdom , courage and life force . When you fall , pull yourself up , stand up than you can truly continue to walk further.

This really struck me. I recalled the incident on the news . Sichuan quake everyone should have known that causes alot of death in china. But what really provoke me is this newspaper article that shows how a policewomen goes beyond her call of duty to even breastfeed kids that arent hers. This shows alot about the people out there. There are bound to be setbacks and struggles , but nonetheless we must not forget that we truly have something in us that we can be proud of . That is our hope and compassion for a better world. No one at all likes to be living in a world of chaos. All of us love a peaceful , war-free world . But how can we as commoner do our part?

Let's really build a bond between people . and create this ideal world where the future generation of kids can really live in. A world free of war .

Cheers = ) hope i havent bore you yet ~

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, June 15, 2008~~

3:07 AM

Another Sleepless night . recently i been having sleepless nights like this. Pondering and pondering over questions floating all around in my head. abit too friendly? i think too much ? probably.. right now , i cant stop thinking. Im beginning to wonder if im really alright .

in the past usually gossips doesnt really bother me at all as i will nvr be interested in gossips. But now im beginning to like listening to gossips around me. Why? what causes the change in me. Certainly not for the better but rather i should say a turn for the worse.

Studies , nypsd , district , chanting .. lots and lots more . I find myself burying in minutes and minutes of chanting. Am i trying to avoid something ? am i really praying truthfully? i cant tell right now.

Are we really humane to do things such as having conflict? War? Violence? None of the above can give human the humane quality. to be human's human. that's the aim. and the mission to do it? only through building strong character will it be possible.

am i at my peak of what am i doing? seriously i have no idea . Seems that im running but from what ? everyday it's as though im drowning myself in chanting . Chanting itself is good but once i drown myself in chanting means im already numb. Can a numb person receive benefits?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, June 14, 2008~~

12:53 AM

Guess it's time to revitalise this blog.. clob web filled blog with lots of spider. just jking.

One thing i truly learn from today that really struck me from within . Am i just a person full of lies not only to others and to myself ? The problems lies with me. Big problem . and i knew it from the start but i kept ignoring this vital fact that it's present.

Yes it's present in my life. not only i never take action to get rid of it , instead it got worse . much worse than i thought. At first i thought life was just as easy going through poly . Nothing much just some assignment to hand up that's all. Everything going fine though there's bits of hiccups but i still manage to get by. Getting by was the main killer. Silently robbing off my passion , my desire , my willingness to strive on. strive on...

As reluctant as i am to face it , i decided that for now that im gonna face it head on no matter how long that takes me. Even it will take me one lifetime to realise my dream i will go for it. I know the path ahead shall be a rugged path for me , but i know this is the only way i can show not just myself but others that i can do it. Chanting is right now the immediate action i can think of right now. So till than , i will share not in digital but face to face , human to human dialogue.

Will you ever notice me...