Guess it's time to revitalise this blog.. clob web filled blog with lots of spider. just jking.

One thing i truly learn from today that really struck me from within . Am i just a person full of lies not only to others and to myself ? The problems lies with me. Big problem . and i knew it from the start but i kept ignoring this vital fact that it's present.

Yes it's present in my life. not only i never take action to get rid of it , instead it got worse . much worse than i thought. At first i thought life was just as easy going through poly . Nothing much just some assignment to hand up that's all. Everything going fine though there's bits of hiccups but i still manage to get by. Getting by was the main killer. Silently robbing off my passion , my desire , my willingness to strive on. strive on...

As reluctant as i am to face it , i decided that for now that im gonna face it head on no matter how long that takes me. Even it will take me one lifetime to realise my dream i will go for it. I know the path ahead shall be a rugged path for me , but i know this is the only way i can show not just myself but others that i can do it. Chanting is right now the immediate action i can think of right now. So till than , i will share not in digital but face to face , human to human dialogue.